New hair style

I decided to change a bit my hair color...

I thought it could help me to change my mind but now I'm not sure anymore...
I like it really, but it doesn't cure the pain I have deep inside...

I had the worst evening last night awfull but I had to be there for Busterichou.
He turned to 27 and I screwed his birthday.

Am I selfish? I wanna say to everyone that I'm feel bad and it's getting worst, but no one wants to listen or hear that I'm getting worst...

Or maybe they don't care... I don't know...

Do I seem happy on that pic?
I'm a good actor, am I?