It drives me crazy!

I can't go further for the moment, but it hurts so badly...

How can I express what I feel without hurting some one else?
How can I express What I feel without looking like a spoiled girl?
How can I express What I feel without bothering people with my F*****g stupid feelings?

I wanna cry, I wanna tell him how much it hurts me...
He is mixed, but I'm devastated...

Won't be able to cope with all those things... I know it... but how can I tell him?