Welcome back to my "ashamed to be" attitude

So today, it was such like a tiny village party...

so B-chou and I decided to go down and look around the place.

and then....

i don't know why, but people can't just stop starring at me just as I should be ashamed of being outside ....

I thought I was over it...

I thought I could live like anyone else...

I thought I could eat like anyone else...

BUT NOWAY...

I'm still ashamed of being "the not-me"

I'm tired of being like this...

I don't wanna eat anymore!

I don't wanna be hungry anymore!

I wanna be gorgeous,

I wanna be stare at because I'm pretty and not because i'm fat and ugly...

I don't wanna cry anymore

I wanna live completly my life without taking care about what the others think about me...

I wanna wake up from that nightmare...