I need to feel that I 'm loved

I'm not talking in the friendship way cause I feel I'm.

But in the other way...

For the moment he keeps telling me that he loves me but it's useless...

I don't feel it...

He stays in a corner of the Appartment and I stay in the opposite one...

When I try to come to him to kiss him, he beleives I'm looking what he is doin'....

I can't feel any warmth from him...

Last saturday he told me I 'm selfish and that we have to do what I want when I decided to do things...

But except for this special occasion we don't go anywhere together, he doesn't drive me anywhere, I'll do things by myself and most of time I stay at the appartment to clean it up to cook ....

So I don't think I'm selfish, but maybe I'm wrong... I don't know.

For the moment I have a dream....

Getting back the link we had....

What do I mean?

Sometimes goin' to the restaurant for a romantic supper....getting some flowers from time to time....

I can't remember when was our last romantic evening.... cause the last time I tried to, I failed.

It was 6 months ago....for his birthday...

I'm not waiting anything special for mine cause first it happens to be in the middle of the week ( Wednesday) and we are working, secondly he forgets my birthday quite every year OR prepare something in the hurry cause remembers it 2 hours before....

So if you come by here : A B-day card should be enough, I don't need more.

Even goin' to the cinema we're not anymore... I have the impression he is ashamed to be seen with me in a area where he knows some people.

Just like he got some embarrassing feedback about being with me...

I'm sure he got ( cause I heard some of them).

I'm taking much more independance... and I'm happy about it, but it also means that we're goin' separate ways...

And he doesn't seem to care...