I would like....

I'd give anything to get rid of this Idea I have.

It makes me depressed

I just want to cry all time and I can't stand it anymore...

What can I do to throw this stupid idea away?

I have that voice in my head that keeps telling that it's time but I know it's not...

Deep inside I know it...

I have the feeling that it would be wrong to do so....

And I know why.... Just because it won't last, I feel it....

I don't see the future as I used to

Life will be different and I wait for something I know it's coming...It's just a matter of time...

So it should be wrong to push to get what I really need now...

I'm sure you don't understand anything but I can't write freely....

If you wanna know just ask me...but through msn...

I won't reveal anything in here.

My life is not really what I expected